i was gluing some stuff with my super glue and started feeling a little dizzy due to inhaling it. i went to do some other household chores a did them AMAZINGLY well. weird. must have been the glue. 

i'm leavin' on a jet plane

i don't think i'll be back again

cause my home is all the same

there ain't nothing lack

nothing to gain

my crib 

my hood

whatever you call that

its all good 

it something i would bet 

i'm sick of this place

sick of your face

check in the mirror

can you keep up the pace

get up!

get up!  

its time to race

no show

let up

are you in a daze

i'll be walking 

straight to the bank with this 

can you see it

you're not the one i diss

make it rain money 

thats all i do 

listen up sonny

you're a little fool

i'm jet plane flyin'

limo ridin'

money makin' son

thats what i'm buying

this is one is consists of parts taken from my other video How Darkmagic USED TO Be. it captures the best tricks in a short clip. 

eddie's liquor corner. 

don't ever be a fool 

man, you're not cool 

you sitting in the corner 

i see you drool

new school 

old school

you not in them too 

then why you here

we give our boos

a punch in your face 

no, we give you two 

so blanked out

you won't have a clue

sitting in the edge 

till' your face is blue

i'm the king of the game 

don't let me sue you

i'm the money don

be a swagger like me 

i'm gonna run you on 

make it rain money 

i'm the new mr. bond 

it ain't funny 

you out so wrong

listen up sonny

drive slow 

before you get too low 

out in the ring 

gotta move with the flow

my hands on the wheel

you out of the window

bleed in my mind 

i can't take this blow

step on the pedal 

to increase the speed

adrenaline rush 

its an evil deed 

picking you up 

take you to town 

now honey don't you ever frown 

lashing out a bill 

for it to get paid

pocket no fill

my car keys i laid 

walking back to my apartment 

my house has been raid

what dumb luck 

thats what i said

'open the door 

feet on the floor 

keys come out 

what you waiting for?'

seventeen years

got a wedding ring 

big mistake

she ain't got no more bling

didn't complain

sorrows she only would sing 

she's happy with whatever her hubby brings 

hubby with alcohol 

brought a girl to a brothel 

big mistake 

that he won't ever tell 

drive so late 

his breathe still reeked 

couldn't press the brakes 

his future bleak

passerby says 

'drive slow, homie'

but its too late 

thats what he told me

this is my version of 'No matter what' by t.i. i really like the song so i thought of doing my own. 

its a freestyle rap that i recorded and i want to show it to you. 

days have past 

man its like real fast 

can't grip it in my hands

this God given test 

to retain my humanity 

to stay in sanity 

i got to keep it real 

keep check with reality

but i know none of this 

would just fade away

it would stay in my head for a couple days

done wrong things 

for the right reasons 

i'll only be out 

for a dozen more seasons

i screwed up all in just one year 

but can you believe it

i'm still standing here

please don't cry 

don't you ever tear 

i'll stay in your heart

oh honey, my dear

guns on the low down

i cant get away

keeps you with a frown

and more to say

but things dont work out

at the end of the day

i love you 

i promise i'll stay

i'm gonna miss you so much 

miss your touch 

miss the way 

you give me a little nudge 

miss the way we cry 

i hope you understand 

i ain't gonna die

it's here i stand

i ain't dead (nah)

i ain't done (nah)

i ain't scared (of what?)

i ain't run (from who?)

but still i stand (yeah)

no matter what pimpin' 

here i am (yeah) 

no matter what 

remember i ain't break (never)

i ain't fold (never)

they hate me more (so?)

yeah i know (haha)

here i go (yeah) 

no matter what shawty 

here i go 

no matter what shawty

i know nothing changes 

no matter how much i pray

give me some time 

your love won't stray 

it will stay in my heart 

to this very day 

i hope you know 

believe what i say 

i always been pushed 

to the very front line 

got to stand for myself

i do it every time 

i know it hurts 

but i gotta say its fine 

i've got to protect you all

even when i'm blind

i didn't knew it would hurt

to hear my rhymes

but you took them away 

even though it was mine 

should have saw it coming 

time after time 

i'll be away 

so here is my dime 

with every puff 

it gets rough 

my hands got cuffed 

thought it would make me 

so damn tough 

but now i'm wasted 

poker games i bluff

to keep myself alive 

i can't get enough

they are all out there

in the streets of NY

i cant run away 

i really wont lie

please honey 

i aint gonna die

heard it before

you give me a sigh

i ain't dead (nah)

i ain't done (nah)

i ain't scared (of what?)

i ain't run (from who?)

but still i stand (yeah)

no matter what pimpin' 

here i am (yeah) 

no matter what 

remember i ain't break (never)

i ain't fold (never)

they hate me more (so?)

yeah i know (haha)

here i go (yeah) 

no matter what shawty 

here i go 

no matter what shawty

i've got to be the best 

got to beat out the rest 

got to be king of the hill

with the gifts i've been blessed

i got not much time 

before my judgement 

i got so much to say 

before my resentment

but everybody knows 

a homie like me

can't grip my future

because i see

my life in a way

so twisted so dark

can't fight out a way

always out of luck

but i know i'll stay 

this damn strong 

it will be okay 

as i rap this song 

God stay with me 

through this way 

it will be long 

i hope you could stay

from all the passing stars 

the way they add it

they got two dollars

that way they swag it 

but we all know that 

this sure does happen

we wait up 

just to get to heaven

there ain't no shorter root there 

my little homie

if there was 

you gotta show me 

because i've been waiting everyday

hoping the lord could take me away

i ain't dead (nah)

i ain't done (nah)

i ain't scared (of what?)

i ain't run (from who?)

but still i stand (yeah)

no matter what pimpin' 

here i am (yeah) 

no matter what 

remember i ain't break (never)

i ain't fold (never)

they hate me more (so?)

yeah i know (haha)

here i go (yeah) 

no matter what shawty 

here i go 

no matter what shawty

i've been cleaning and packing up my messy room for the past few days. and i was playing some video games too. surprised? well, me too. i'm more of a person who doesn't really enjoy playing these type of games as i prefer more interactive ones but the games i've been playing sure did catch my short-span attention. hahaha. 

i enjoyed my time at the farewell party. i took a train with ben and darren and we ended up lost several times. i thought i could trust those two geography students to be able to read a map located outside the train station. but we ended up going the total opposite direction. we had to ask the passer-by for directions. we arrived at the shopping centre and got ourselves lost again. luckily, we came upon yi feng, neville, alfred and zheng yuan or we would still remained lost. they took us to the hotel lobby where we waited for our host, techapon. during our wait, my hands got itchy as i wanted to play some card games. i borrowed darren's deck of cards. i won the first game but during the second game, our cards got confiscated by the hotel staff. they restricted us from playing. i really wonder whether its all about bad karma. my decks of cards got frequently confiscated by my teachers. with no cards, we talked. techapon soon came wit his hair dyed. we went in before he gave us his UNPREPARED speech. 

i sat with andy, jonathan, ivan, chang kang, wei jie and yong cheng. i went out to get some food. when i came back, i was well entertained by andy and yong cheng making fun of jonathan. some of us didn't get the pasta and we all blamed jonathan for that. hahaha. yong cheng left the table and i filled his salad with with pepper. when he came back and continued to eat, he found his salad with some 'extra ingredient'. but like the brave man he is, he ate it. i went to take jonathan out for a 'walk' to help me select some desert. when he came back to the table, andy and yong cheng used their reverse psychology to make jonathan believe that they placed something in his food. but, he ate it in the end. our first game was musical chairs. it sure was hilarious!

congratulations to the winners. the next game was here a group of people were to stand on a piece of newspaper that would be folded every turn. if their feet was out of the newspaper, they would be out. 

i took part in it with wei jie but we were out pretty quickly. we took a class photo after the games. 

the night carried on with a dance conducted by the lovely couples of our school. we were also entertained by two solo beat boxing by vimalan and dalston.

everyone was given a rose and they were to give it to who they think should be our prom king and queen. i gave mine to lay ting. techapon was the prom king while anna was the prom queen. we did some lucky draw things before going out to take some pictures.

i really want to thank techapon for organizing this event. take care techapon and wish you a great future filled with success. i'll miss you. me, ben and darren took a cab home. 

thank you darren for taking these pictures.

tonight i'll be going for a farewell party. meeting a number of friends and spending the night with them.

the lyn fury is pretty good. it has a smooth string play. both the weight and size are acceptable. its neither too heavy/light nor is it too small. by removing the side caps, grinding it is possible, but it would be difficult. its a good yo-yo to use for its price.

i've just reach home from shopping. i bought a new yo-yo called lyn fury. its black and blue. i have yet to try it out and i hope to be looking forward to a good respond from this new yo-yo.

i hate it so much. making an msn account is really difficult when you cant open the files. and I'm still not done with it yet. but i got to thank my friends [natasha and yong cheng]  for making it a lot easier. only way to cure this is by laughing it off. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA[sarcastic tone]

Obama wins!!! a change for america has been made. i wish i could have watched it all happen but i was having my exams. so here is my tribute to the new president.

you've been through hard times

you've beaten the odds

you faced criticisms 

about you being a fraud

you stayed true to the people 

true to the nation 

through yourself 

you'll show me your dedication

you'll bring back pride 

make an increase in participation

here is where you'll receive 

your true appreciation 

thanks to lynn for giving me the results right after my paper.

how long has it been? 

its been four years

we stand together 

we got nothing to fear

we parting away?

please don't give a tear 

for we'll party tonight 

drown ourselves with beer

we been through the hard life 

it's something we do 

there's no 'i' in 'we' 

it's a 'e' and 'w'

we share our thoughts 

we now like a crew 

let's stay together 

let's not stay a few

time has come 

for us to part our ways

we'll remain a memory 

about the good old days 

if it's not about the future

it's about today 

i'll be begging you 

"please just stay"

if i could 

i would have my way 

repeat this year

i got so much to say

repeat this year

take our 'o's again

you be screaming

"are you okay?"

three more papers to go. WOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!! what a relief. four years of blood and sweat all comes down to three mere weeks. it is kind of ironic as i only really studied the day before the paper and i think i won't do as badly as i expected. i hope January/February won't prove me wrong. 

i have just posted some videos on youtube. guess what? it's about me playing yo-yos. not much of a surprise though. i would really like to join some competitions next year, but i have missed a year of practice. got to use this year end REALLY wisely. 

i might be looking for a job to save up some extra cash for... more yo-yos. and most probably other stuff as well. STITCH! that definitely would be one of them. its been awhile since i last watched a movie so i'll definitely spend some time on that. if i can watch two movies in a week, by the end of the year... i have watched sixteen movies!  

the holiday would be the right time to get my life back, but i don't think i deserve it. i didn't put as much effort as the REST of the students in this little island...

WHOA! time to rein in! I'm babbling! i ain't done that in... years.

it's almost over! the 'O's are almost over! 

my new yo-yo!!

isn't she beautiful?

at this rate, i think I'll never ever put a picture with my face in here. haha

my invigilator V doesn't understand the concept of 'no usage of the mobile phone is allowed in examinations' hahahaha

it sure does look bigger in person...

my favorite yo-yos

time moves fast 

we cant contain 

an asylum vest 

thats my restrain 

for anger kept in 

right inside my brain

for where i've been 

memories i retain 

I'm so caught up 

in this madhouse 

I'm so drugged out 

i feel like a mouse 

a coin i flip 

to determine my fate 

but I'll be here 

hoping to stay sedate

please just give the doctor another hour 

before they give my dead body a bouquet of flowers 

died of cancer in a lonely tower  

but i dont want my death to be that sour 

i live in fear as the machines beep 

being tormented in a bottomless pit 

in life thats where I've been defeat  

give me a kiss of death on my lips 

my days were rough 

when I'm selling crack 

everybody wants some 

they want my tic tack 

friends keep a look out 

watching my back

those who oppose 

man, we attack 

days were rough 

i got played 

sentence 4 years 

a jail i stayed 

done some time

a bail i paid 

keeping me on the streets 

continuing my raid 

i wrote this rap based on a drug dealer's point of view. its about the mistakes he made and he never learnt from. 

its been awhile since my last entry. i was quite busy with studies, didnt have the time. i have been working on a couple new songs and have planned to use the year end holiday to do some more. i can feel the pressure as the days get closer to my finals. right now, i would really want to just laze around and watch the sunset.

the sunsets down 

the night gets cold

I'm gritting my teeth 

your picture i hold 

can you see the reflection 

can you see my soul 

fear in my eyes 

playing cards i fold

but baby don't cry

i want to know 

if you'll be waiting

keeping it with the flow 

we'll dance under the moonlight 

taking steps real slow 

you are the light of my life 

just so you know

as the days just pass 

as the nights fade out 

i see you standing there

you asked what I'm about

but all i tell you 

my mind died out 

passion is gone 

what you talking about 

can you see I'm hurt

can you see me cry

tears rolling down the cheeks 

as i see you die 

i hold you in my hands 

i tell you a lie 

that we'll live through night 

baby, we gonna fly 

we lived through the hard times 

we stand strong with pride

you help me write rhymes 

baby, lets go ride 

we could stay this way

if we keep up a fight 

for the love we have 

it last through the night 

hello. its another lazy saturday afternoon. just got back from tuition awhile ago and feeling a little tired. the past week was a little crazy for me as i got back most of my results. some of them are just passes while the rest didn't make it. its only a few more weeks before my examinations begin. these examinations will determine where i would be studying for the next few years and what subjects i would be taking. every night before i go to sleep, i feel nervous and keep questioning myself if i had spent that day wisely. but i always get the answer that i don't want to hear.

the view outside my window. i can see this everyday. haha.

just studied History for the past hour and a half. i was so sleepy that i nearly dozed off several times. i guess that happened because i have yet to reach my favorite topics. here is a new one.

can you feel the heat 

can you feel the beat 

its running through my brain 

through my legs and feet

running up my spine

when i press DELETE 

would you cut that crap 

and just take a seat 

i tired of your insults

i tired of the names 

would you cut that out 

you look so damn lame 

when you think that you're in

but you're out of the game 

i'll take you for a ride 

bring you back from where you came 

you so left out 

you remain the same 

you so drained out

from the lion you tame 

but you cant do that 

you cant burn the flame 

just walk off

get out of my picture frame

so studying actually helps me write rhymes. guess i should  be doing this more often.

i am so free that i am clueless on what to do. i have no mood to study. my prelims ended this morning and i sure am happy about. Ha. Ha. Ha...

can you feel the heat

killing us all  

global warming 

coming to us this fall  

we cant prevent it 

says the people in the hall 

remember what you said 

can you recall? 

"why do i have to share with you?

I'm out of love and you know that too

can you see now that i got no clue 

global warming? have you heard that too?"

so all my homies back 

we rapping with jay z

we keep it on track 

man, we not that lazy

we keep bringing the attack

you look so sleazy 

every beat every rhyme

my new track with young jeezy

i bring it fast 

like a damn commando 

shots ring the air 

i never run out of ammo

i never miss 

I'm like john rambo 

look out your window 

i just blew up your limo

i write raps and songs 

man, this is easy

i can tell right from wrong 

even when I'm dizzy 

i cant stop thinking 

my drink so fizzy 

keeps me awake 

do you remember your As to Zs?

its just like another day 

i woke up into a world so grey 

i wont go out for I'm afraid 

a war broke out 

like what i said 

our greed feeds ours minds 

makes us decay 

come closer 

listen what i have to say

the world ends now starting from today

lost of souls for them i pray

wow. its here.