yo-yo that i hopefully will get this year. eight8eight...

i went out job hunting yesterday with jocelyn (only filled up one job application form) before going to the cathay to watch Valkyrie. the show was surprisingly good. i loved the story plot and how they placed those pieces of history together. 

congratulations to Heath Ledger for winning actor in supporting role for his character Joker in the Dark Knight!! you really deserve it!

as you can see, i just done watching the academy awards and i am rather happy with the results even though i felt that some of the winners KOFF[the curious of benjamin button]KOFF didn't deserve those awards at all.

i also wanted Mickey Rourke to win something for the movie the wrestler...

well, i hope this year's Wolverine (in cinemas april 29 in singapore) will win a lot of awards for next year's academy awards.

speaking about awards, i believe that Tha Carter 3 by lil wayne should have won album of the year, psychosocial by Slipknot for best metal performance, best rap album and best rap song should belong to t.i. (paper trail for album, Swagger like us for song). 

what doesn't kill me, simply makes me stranger...

hey! check this out!

its probably the cooolest thing i have seen in the past year of 2009.

go obama!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-yJBsjatW0

i went to church with alex and amanda yesterday morning. i attended a talk on love which is suppose to be the aftermath version of their Valentine day talk on friday. i enjoyed the talk because of some of the odd humor. after that, me and alex went to raffles city to learn my new favorite game, World of Warcraft Miniatures. we sort of learn the game on the spot, with the help of the leck koon. i enjoyed the game a lot, it sure was worth it to buy it.

i used the Horde while alex used the Alliance. i won the first game, but lost the next two. there is only one conclusion: I HATE Ruby Gemsparkle!

i went out for dinner with malan, darren, kenneth and yogi at swensens. we were there to celebrate Kenneth's belated birthday. we talked for awhile at the VIEWING MALL.

have you heard T.I.'s Swagger Like Us? it sure is an amazing song and a great performance at yesterday's Grammy awards its so good that i have to come up with a verse of my own. 

No one in the corner have...

swaggers like us 

Beggars like em'

they wanna be like me 

they wanna rap my jam

they wanna be like me

be who i really am

swagger and all 

thats what i tell em'

No one in the corner have...

but everybody knows

they wanna hear my verse

they wanna see me out

they wanna hear me curse 

bags of money 

they wanna see me first

guns come out 

i see them in the hearse 

money fills up 

my pockets burst

i cant take this

the more i thirst

what is life 

without any pain

i cant see you

without your restrain

i'm making money 

for all i do 

a swagger like me

looks so damn cool

for everything i own 

for everything i rule

offended you

come and sue 

a letter to x-23 from her mother

Please forgive me. Even as I write the words, they ring so hollow. My mistakes… no, my choices… they cannot be undone, much less forgiven. How all this came to pass… and the truth about Weapon X. Had it ended there, would I be less a monster? Or more? Would I even know the difference? Of course I don't have to tell you about monsters. Your life is defined by monsters. Replicating the mutant genome proved difficult but rebuilding Weapon X seemed all but impossible. For every enzyme, for every codon, for every sequence we repaired, or even built back from near nothingness, we seemed to be missing a million more. But I felt alive, the work, the failure, the challenge. It was like a brilliant light, shining inside of me. I felt like my life had a purpose. What a fool I was. I was defiant in the face of my failures. I was determined to succeed out of spite. Weeks passed. I was working on two projects, living two lives. I Was Used To That. I Had Kept Secrets Before. It Seems So Incredible To Me Now, That In All That Time, Given Everything That I Knew What I Was Doing And What The End Result Would Bear I Didn't Give It A Second Thought. I Told Myself That You Weren't Real. I Told Myself That This Was Science Not Life. I Was Creating A Weapon Not A Child. I Was Wrong. When I Was Little I Always Believed That Every Thing That Happened To Me -- I Deserved. The We All Get What We Deserve. Maybe I Was Right. No Longer The Experimenter, I Was Now Part Of The Experiment. A Vessel To Be Poked And Proded. To Be Violated. The Certainly Didn't Care About Me...not With A Weapon To Train. A Team Of Physicians, Psychologists, Nutritionists, And Military Strategists Now Ran My Life. They Watched My Every Move But They Didn't See Every Thing. I ASKED For Forgiveness Before. Now I'm Telling You Don't For Give Me. Don't Forgive Any Of Us Fr What We Did. Ever. I Remember Everything...everything We Did To You And You Deserve To Know Why We Id These Things. Your Training Was Designed To Strip You Of Your Humanity. After All, In The Eyes Of The Program, you Weren't Human You Were A Weapon. A Weapon I Willingly Conceived For Them. Our Order Were To Kelp You From Gaining Any Sense Of Self Something They Said Would Compromise Our Ability To Control You. We Were Never To Treat You As A Child Only As A Weapon But Not Every One Followed Those Orders For That I'm Grateful. Sutter Wanted To Complete Your Construction But That Wasn't Possible While Your Healing Factor Was Dormant. you Would Never Survive The Surgery So Rice Was Given Permission To Take What Ever Steps Were Necessary To Activate Your X-gene. He Chose Radiation Poisoning. You Nearly Died That Day. Unfortunately Rice Was Right. The Radiation Worked. Now Nothing Stood In There Way Especially Me. I Only Found Out Later What Happened That Your Claws Were Extracted One By One Hat He Sharpened And Then Coated Them With The Indestructible Metal, Adamantium, Out Side Of Our Body It Was Never Supposed To Be Like That. So Much Wasn't. I Should Have Know What Was coming Not That I Could Have Prevented It But I Would Have Tried. I'm Sorry So Sorry. When It Was Time For Your First Field Test The Target Was Chosen With The Flip Of A Coin. Who It Was Didn't Matter. As Long As The Target Was High Profile And Couldn't Be Gotten To. Sutter Needed To Make A Statement And You Delivered It To The World. I Wanted To Understand Why We Doing This. I Told Martin I Needed To Under Stand Why You Had To Publicly Kill And Innocent Man, His Family And So Many Others. So, He Told Me He Said, It's Simple. You Can't Sell Anything Without Advertising. That's What This Was All About. The Buying And Selling Of Lives For Profit. Not Saving The World, Or Taking It Over. No, This Was About Money. A Lot Of It. Martin Sold You For A Million Dollars A Pound And As You Know By Now, There Were No Shortage Of Buyers. Rice Was Right. I Didn't Matter. Not To Them. Not To You. Not To Anyone. All I Could Do Is Watch. While You Were Forced To Kill And Kill, And Kill, And Kill. You Killed Royalty. Godfathers. Drug lords. Dictators. Assassins Anyone...everyone...for A Price. For Three Ears, You Murdered Without Fail. Every Target They Marked, You Killed. Every Time Limit They Set, You Beat. Every Rendezvous Point They Plotted, You Reached Except One. The One Where Rice Was Waiting For You. When Rice Came Back From The Mission, He Told Us What Happened. He Said You Didn't Make The Rendezvous In Time. That He Had To Abort The Mission When The Team Started Taking Fire. And That He Saw You Die. I Didn't Want To Believe Him. You Never Told Me What Happened. How You Survived Or How You Maid Your Way Back. Why Didn't You Tell Me? For So Long, I Held Myself Above Sutter And Rice. They Made You A Killer. They Were The Ones Using You. But All It Took Was One Phone Call To Open My Eyes And See I Was Just Like Them. They Say In life That We Ar Judged By The Choices We Make They Are What Define Us I Chose To Bring You In To This World. I Chose To Stay In The Program Even After They Stripped You Of Your Humanity And Molded You In To A Weapon. I'm Responsible For Everything That Has Happened For All The Pain All The Death For Everything You Have Suffered Because I Had A Choice When You Had None. And I Chose To Do Nothing. I Always Assumed It Was Rice That Cut You. He Hurt You So Many Times In The Past...he Almost Killed You Twice. I Never Wanted To Believe It Was You. The Damage I've Done...can I Ever Forgive Myself. You Couldn't Stop What Rice Made You Do...but Some How You Managed To Save Henry And Tell Me The Truth witch Means There Is Hope...you Showed Me We Failed...you Are Not A Weapon You Are A Child. Always Remember You Are Not To Blame. You Did Not Pick This Life. We...i Forced It Upon You. The Blood You Have Spilled Is On My Hand Not Yours And Please Understand Why I Must Ask You To Kill One Last Time. Because Tonight What You Do Is Right. Tonight, What You Serve Is Justice. Tonight, you Take Back The Life We Stole From You. I Never Wanted A Family. My Father Stripped Me Of That Desire. He Took My Child Hood My Innocence My Life. And Then I Took Yours. I Became What I Hated And Feared Most And You Became My Victim. But Then You Showed Me Hope. Not When You Saved Megan, But When You Saved Henry. You Showed Me That We Can Chose To Be Something Other Than What We Are Forced To Be That We Can Be Something Better Than We Believe We Are. And, In That Moment, You Saved My Life, All That Matter To Me Now Is That I Save Yours. I Wish We Could Just Run Away W/out Any More Blood Shed. But If Don't Stop Them They Will Never Stop. They Will Do It Again. They've Already Started. After Tonight, We'll Just Keep Moving And Never Look Back. We'll Start A New Life Have A Future Be A Family. I'm Sorry I Waited So Long To Tell You These Things. There Is So Much More I Want To Tell You, And I Will But One Thing That You Must Always Remember No Matter What Has Happened And No Matter What May Come You Are A Child Not A Weapon. you Are My Child. You Are My Daughter And I Love You. I will always love you, Laura.

Your Mother, Sarah

i've been in the game 

i do it all the time

remember my name

its all in the rhymes

the king of the hill

is what i wanna be

packed dollar bills

make it rain money

life been tough man

i cant get enough

cant seem to understand

never make me tough

so in the rap world

is where i play

cant leave my girl

thats what i say

so general

what we copy at

stats and all

when we attack

i see them coming

front and back

hide or run

weapons we lack

i went out with yogi, darren and vimalan yesterday to have lunch at the airport. we ate fish and co. the food sure was nice. i ate some fish and chips things. before i met them, i went to buy some green z-stacks for my beloved yoyo gwen.